thE beGInNinG oF LifE ~niSa~

…happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives….

If I knew it would be the last time,
That I’d see you fall asleep,
I would tuck u in more tightly,
And pray the Lord, ur soul to keep..

If I knew it would be the last time,
I’d hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
So I could play them back day after day..

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute,
To stop and say “I love you”,
Instead of assuming u would KNOW I do..

If I knew it would be the last time,
I would be there to share your day,
Well I’m sure you’ll have so many more,
So I can let just this one slip away..

For surely there’s always tomorrow,
To make up for an overnight,
And we always get a second chance,
To make everything just right..

There will always be another day,
To say “I love you” and certainly there’s
another chance to say our “Anything I can do?”

But just in case I might be wrong,
And today is all I get,
I’d like to say how much I love you,
And I hope we never forget..

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
Young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance,
You get to hold your loved one tight..

So if you’re waiting for tomorrow,
Why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
U’ll surely regret the day..

That u didn’t take that extra time,
For a smile, a hug, or a kiss,
And u were too busy to grant someone,
What turned out to be their one last wish…

So hold your loved ones close today,
And whisper in their ear,
Tell them how u love them,
And that you’ll always hold them dear..

Take time to say “I’m sorry”
“Please forgive me”,  “Thank you” or “ It’s okay”,
And if tomorrow never comes,
You’ll have no regrets about today

Anynomous….

You’re there by my side
In every way
I know that you would not forsake me
I give you my life
Would not think twice
Your love is all I need believe me

I may not say it quite as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in
And I will love you ’til forever
Until death do us part we’ll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we’ll get there
This I swear

I’m wondering how I ever got by
Without you in my life to guide me
Where ever I go the one thing that’s true
Is everything I do I do for you

I may not say it quite as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in
And I will love you ’til forever
Until death do us part we’ll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we’ll get there
This I swear

So whenever you get there
Just reach out for me
I’ll never let you down my love

And I will love you ’til forever
Until death do us part we’ll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we’ll get there
This I swear

And I will love you ’til forever
Until death do us part we’ll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we’ll get there
This I swear

Jan 24, 2004…

Love comes to those who still hope, even though they’ve been disappointed, to those who still believe , even though they’ve been betrayed, need to love those who still love even though they’ve been hurt before…

Looking at your picture
From when we first met
You gave me a smile
That I could never forget
And nothing I could do
Could protect me from you that night

Wrapped around your finger
Always in my mind
The days we’d plan cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything were everything
Everything to me

I just want you to know
That I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
I just want you to know

All the doors are closing
I’m trying to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it was me instead
My dreams are empty
From the day
The day you slipped away

And I just want you to know
That I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say (yeah)
I would do it all again
I just want you to know

That since I lost you, I lost myself (no)
No, I can’t fake it, there’s no one else

I just want you to know
That I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say (I have to say)
I would do it all again
I just want you to know

I just want you to know
That I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
(And then there’s) And then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe (yeah)
That there’s a day you’ll come back to me
(But) But still I have to say
I would do it all again
I just want you to know …

Tomorrow the sun will shine
and dry the tears in your eyes
Suddenly love comes alive

This is a song for the unloved
This is the music for one last cry
This is a prayer that tomorrow will help me leave the past behind

All alone on a Sunday morning
Outside I see the rain is falling
Inside I’m slowly dying
But the rain will hide my crying, crying, crying
And you
Don’t you know my tears will burn the pillow
Set this place on fire
‘Cause I’m tired of your lie
All I needed was a simple "Hello"
But the traffic was so noisy that you could not hear me cry
I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure,
My heart never knew such pain
You leave me so confused
Now I’m all cried out, over you…..

how do u feel when someone u love, doesn’t loves u..

how do u feel when someone u care, doesn’t care about u..

how do u feel when someone u always think of, doesn’t think about u…

how do u feel when someone u miss, doesn’t miss u..

how do u feel when someone u want to live with, never think about that..

how do u feel when someone u appreciate, never appreciate u..

how do u feel when someone u really2 loves with ur full heart, only loves u for  other reason..

how do u feel when someone u trust, betrayed u………

SO HOW DO U FEEL…………………?????????????

I’m a big girl in a big world

It’s not a big thing if you leave me

I can see the first leaf falling it’s all yellow and nice

It’s so very cold outside like the way I’m feeling inside

Outside it’s now raining and tears are falling from my eyes

Why did it have to happen why did it all have to end

I have your arms around me warm like fire but when I open my eyes you’re gone..

okey…today i’m postcall…yesterday i oncall..2nd call n worked in OT for whole day..what was so special y’day??ahaaa…i had a chance by Shukri to do Ray’s Amputation of 3rd and 4th toe for different patient..at first, i was like…uhhh…"can i make it??"…or sumething like dat…luckly, i got no tremors eventho that was a very first time doing it..yeaaa..i’ve saw many cases oredy n i shud know how to do it…but as usual first time maa…n he trust in me compare to Dz…

i was able to sleep early last night ( thanx God..one case had to be cancelled by anaes bcoz presence of crepitation of lungs n difficuilty IV line assess )..but y i still feel very tired tonite???erhmm…….